day dreams of a Krishna nature

As the sun was pouring through,
a temporary blindness began to ensue....
My outer eyes blinded,
my inner eye blended....
into a Krishna like day dream...

And there he was...
a MAN..
with all his softness,
his strength and innocence...
his sparkling heart,
not held apart....

And there, they were...
the WOMEN...
with all their true gopi adoration....
lost in undeniable attraction...
hither to unknown to them..
this magnetic pulling...
between the divinity of HIS being...
and their own becoming...

In their human like endeavor,
they began to argue and maneuver...
But take ME they cried...
and pulled and tore....
to be nearer and nearer still...to his  side

HE did not placate to them...
nor join them in  their frantic wailing,
but instead he began to LAUGH
at their so human FAILINGS...
and to teach them...

BECOME your own DIVINITY....
he whispered into each pearl like crescent ear
and come PLAY with me, all my lovers dear...
And we will dance the ecstasy,
the POWER in your FEMININE...
with the POWER of my MASCULINE...
be the softening moon to my blinding sun,
the molding sea to my shifting shore...
the water bearer, to my desert canyons
the holding sheath to my cutting sword,
the resting place for all my actions,
the shape shifting  season changer,
the richness of the life bearer....
BE all of this and MORE
was his whispered invocation...
his healing  invitation...

and wasn't that quite a magnificent...
daylight dream ?
as the blinding sunlight closed my outer eyes,
and my inner eyes,
began to glow?

In a New Year

I have known....
such a tender gardener.
Who has brought,
sunshine,
soft rain,
and rich soil
to my soul

I have known
such a sweet friend,
Who has cajoled
teased,
hugged,
and pulled me
into happiness

I have known
such a wonder of a lover,
whose eyes,
voice,
strength,
and purpose,
in loving me...
has brought me to my knees

I have known,
such a willing companion,
in adventure,
in the discovery,
of such beauty,
of so much clarity,
and found in myself,
bravery,
boldness,
kindness

And even in this unimaginable fulfillment...
I know there is so much more.....
and so on to a NEW YEAR !

Pearls of distraction

Pearls of Distractions

Pearls of distraction,
lie scattered at my feet
Once diamonds and scarlet rubies,
they became my fool's gold

I cast them aside,
as the truth of my being
began to unfold....
they became tarnished,
and rusted, belonging to the discard pile of OLD

Their once bright beauty,
had begun to choke me...
their value to hold me...
to that which was BEFORE

I felt the weight of their
past shadowed memories,
crumbled dust of photographs,
of other people's ideals
starving and sick on someone else's  meals
I BURNT them,
TORE them,
utterly DESTROYED them.....

FOR,
I belong to no man...
neither beast nor saint,
And,
I am naked in my OWN beauty...
FREE in my own heart...
TIME and breath, given and belonging only to MYSELF...
yes, those pearls of distraction,
they do lie,
scattered.....
dying at my feet....

Feelin' Machine

can ya feel it,
in your feelin' machine...

gears rattlin''
sweet stick shift grindin'
rusty wheels wanderin'
down the pot holed track

can ya get there,
in your feelin' machine....

wannabe sleek race car driver,
piece it together Mr. McGaever,
roll on down that road, you blues beltin' diva,
the highway's waiting, squirmin' and turnin'
like a pissed off rattlesnake, with waitin' too long....

Can we get some speed goin?
in this feelin' machine....

Get your foot off the brake,
jam on the gas, before it's too late,
red and blue lights flashin'. way in the back,
we can't get caught, if we just keep on goin'

this feelin' machines...
is made for sorcerin" badass speed,
for wicked and wild, wind blown back hair...
for open mouthed, teeth showin', lip grinning, starry eyed stares...
just gotta open 'er up,  go way past the limit, cause that's just where the good rides start...

Ah, yes...
this superb, edge defying,
limit smashin', great Cadillac of a ride....
feelin' machine !

Different Parties

You and I...
 we went to different parties,

We left together,
thought we were together,
entered together,
intended to BE together,
but you and I
we went to different parties

I peered through
the marbled looking  glass and saw you there,
In your purple velvet finery,
with your bright green tie....

Your laughter was so loud and heavy,
the music throbbed,
open mouthed, and wild eyed....
drunken laughter....
and wide spread thighs....
crooked disguises,
full of lies......

and I wished I was there...
but could not climb through the closed and boarded portal

so you and I,
we went to different parties....

And thus restrained,
I did return,
 my gaze,
to the place,
I COULD go...

White veiled silk and satin,
celestial symphony of other world instruments playing....
dancing, glowing...... fine as  starlight,
clear and opened eyes with sight....
fine tuned perfect subtle hearing...
I drank the wine,
of pure undiluted,
and unselfish,
sweet and potent,
 love......

And I let you GO...

Yes, my darling...

You and I,
we went to different parties

Falling in LOVE with LOVE

I fell in love with LOVE tonight,

With no particular object for its affection,
it simply washed over ME...
waves of it
 crashed and tumbled through me.....

And I felt clean again !
FREE again....

And the wind and falling leaves, outside...
echoed my joy....
played to me....
a song of wild satisfaction,

a syncopated, symphony of torrential rain drops...
upon the stones...
filled the cracks and crevices
of this parched earth and of my soul......

LOVE spoke...
and I listened to its voice...

LOVE played....
and I joined in its holy game....

LOVE lit the way....
with its soft lanterns....
and I followed,

LOVE stayed...
and I bathed...
and bathed,
and bathed,

And then LOVE asked,
and I shared it...
spread it....
filled as many cups as I could...
with it....

I spilled it...
and it ran
and spread
and grew
so out of my control....

I drank it...
I splashed it,
I slept in it...
and I dined upon it...

this vast..
vast....
feast....
of feeling....
of falling...
in LOVE with
LOVE

For the beauty...

For the beauty of the EARTH,
can you feel it?
The heart stopping magnificence of her?
The frozen moment of time, as we watch her?
The sharp intake of breath, as we are overwhelmed with the awe of her?

For the beauty of LIFE,
can you feel it?
The tenderness of its fragility?
The preciousness of its being only momentarily ?
The passion to experience all, in its totality ?

For the beauty of LOVE,
can you feel it?
The tenderness that holds true, throughout the dark night?
The butterfly tingling, as your heart, stumbles and begins its first flight?
The depths in the  oceans of yearning, as you reach for LOVE, with all your might?

For the beauty of CONSCIOUSNESS,
can you feel it?
The crystal clear feeling of knowing?
The complete stillness of no doubts remaining?
The vastness of that peaceful domain of being?

Gratitude, my darling....
so becomes YOU